feeling stagnant

so, my promise of more blogging sure did not turn out.  let's just say that last year was the year of the crazy train.  first and foremost, J and i got married at what was the best wedding ever (IMHO).  i have so much to say about that day, but i'll get to that some other time.

right now i'm going through a bit of the "i'm 30(something) and what the hell do i do with my life?" craziness.  this is much cuter when you're in your 20s.  last year i had the best distraction in the world, but now i'm back facing life head-on.  well, head-slightly-tilted-to-one-side.  i'm working on the head-on part.

i want to do what i love: acting, being creative, reading, writing, dancing, laughing.  i want to somehow make that my job.  it's the how that has me down.  i figured the first step was writing about it here.  maybe a stranger will read this and offer some great advice.  or maybe just putting it out into the world will make me feel better and become its own guidance.  who knows?  i do feel that it's an issue that many people my age go through, but it's less talked about because we should all know this crap by this point, right?  um... no.  but let's talk about it.  let's figure it out.

(source: denofopulence)